of what it is..

this is my own creation, I made this lyric myself.. genre? of course metal rock, screamo! it's an emo song, obviously....

striding myself helplessly between the ground,

I mounted on the stairs so high of what I was feeling.

only thoughts of getting to my room quickly,

I didn't even took a glance around,

never wanted people to question the act that I was committing.

oh why, why do these things happened to me?

thinking you were my destiny,

I puked on my fate!

bawling to the moon,

I slitted my wrist as I like!

screaming and bawling again,

I lit up my cigarette,

knife in my other hand.

the room so near felt so far away.
I couldn't take it anymore.

drenched with tears I was,

I began to run.

oh why, why do these things happened to me?

thinking you were my destiny,

I puked on my fate!

bawling to the moon,

I slitted my wrist as I like!

screaming and bawling again,

I lit up my cigarette,

knife in my other hand.

tonight, don't search for me.

if there's no more you, I'll make sure that there will be no more me..

no more me!!!!!

oh why, why do these things happened to me?
thinking you were my destiny,
I puked on my fate!
bawling to the moon,
I slitted my wrist as I like!
screaming and bawling again,
I lit up my cigarette,
knife in my other hand.

if there's no more you, I'll make sure that there will be no more me.....

sweep the floor sooner dear,

there will be blood!!!!!!

Moulin Rouge!

hey guys, probably I'm a little bit outdated about movies but I'm currently watching "Moulin Rouge!", been my current favourite since I watched it unintentionally on Star Movies this morning. this movie was released in June 1, 2001, which makes tomorrow's the 8th anniversary of its release.

my heart is touched by the act of Nicole Kidman and Ewan McGregor who were playing the roles Satine and Christian respectively. it is a very romantic film and dramatic when you get to watch it with full of feelings and concentration. "Moulin Rouge!" was actually an old film which were redirected and produced in Broadway Production.

the film takes place in the early 19th century, as Christian (Ewan McGregor) enters Paris hoping to write love stories. Several peculiar figures live above him, including the French artist Toulouse-Lautrec (John Leguizamo) and his Bohemian troupe attempting to construct a play. after a freak accident, Christian is suddenly thrust into the middle of their play. the crew hires him as the star writer. he then takes a visit to the flirtatious Moulin Rouge night club, ran by the robust Harold Zinder (Jim Broadbent). it is here where he tries to persuade the club's popular, sexy lead performer and courtesan, Satine (Nicole Kidman), to work in their production.

after mistaking Christian for a rich and powerful aristocrat, The Duke (Richard Roxburgh), Satine falls in love with Christian, much to the dismay of many. however, she believes herself to be a simple prostitute, who should never fall in love because it will get in the way of success. when the Duke agrees to produce a major production at the Moulin Rogue, but only under his circumstances, things become even more complicated. The Duke demands that Satine becomes his personal property if Harold and the others want his financial support.

obviously, the best thing in "Moulin Rouge!" is the music. apart from the cast, the film's big list of musical artists includes David Bowie, Christina Aguilera, Mya, Pink, Fatboy Slim, Beck, and many others. the kind of music that plays here does not account for a period epic at all, however. "Moulin Rouge!" doesn't try to be a historic depiction, but instead an expression of fantasy and passion. the elegant sets, eventful style, and powerful choreography scream modern day, post-pop-culture.

so, better watch you movie lovers, don't miss out this wonderful film!

recipe for love

L.O.V.E

7 more days to go~

wow, na krsahan ih, ari ne bh pngujung blan may udh.. suk udh 1st June, ertinya, smingu jua gnya g 2 aku b'dayyy!! huhu.. i'l b 20 dis yr.. *sigh* bnar na krsahan, bnarth!! tp na apa, at least i'l b celebrating mi b'day wif mi blovd ones!! =)

with lots and lots of love,

azeemwahsss

another a little bit of my love life...

okay, let us pick up what has been left out..

my second childhood love was Bahar.. he got transferred to our school during the beginning of the year 2000. I was in primary 5 during the morning session and was in primary 3 during the afternoon session which is the religious lessons.

at first I didn't give him a damn, never had I thought to replace Wafi in my child mind at that time. I only heard this Bahar thing all around me but never got to know who the heck he was. this Bahar was kind of popular, I wondered who he was that made people go crazy about him. it was told to me that he is a brother of my neighbour Mu'iz, but I always knew is that, Mu'iz's brother is a grown-up, an adult, it is very impossible to have Mu'iz's brother to still schooling! and I asked my friend, who happened to admire him, if really his name was Bahar, because from what I know is that Mu'iz's brother's name is Nas, not Bahar! she responsed that his name was Bahar and not Nas, so I beared with it.

I tried to forget everything about this Bahar, but my curiousity burnt and prickled so badly that I needed to know who was this Bahar person, so I peeped through the window to see if there were going to happen that this Bahar showed up, but my work was useless.

on the next day when I came to school in the afternoon, I walked in the pathway procrastinately as it was still early to show up in class. as I walked through the pathway, I saw my friends were hanging around at the end of the pathway, but this one guy with them, I had never seen him before. I got my eyes on him and he got mine too. I fell in love at the first sight for him. I asked one of my friend in that group, and she said, that was him, Bahar.

when I went back home after school, I peeped again to the next door, there he was, just got home from school and got out from the car. funny that I never noticed him throughout these years I have been neighbour to him, how could I had missed him out before?

many stories been revealed about him being a brother to Mu'iz. some people told me that he was a step brother to Mu'iz, while others told me that they were only cousins. what ever it was, I didn't care anymore, my wonder had been answered of him being related to Mu'iz.

fortunately for me, my love got responded by him. he liked me too. he fell for me right on the spot of our first meet, he too, fell in love at first sight like I did, I think. what ever it is, right after the incident that we got to meet each other, we flirted almost everyday through the windows that faced to his house.

I felt a little bit guilty for Wafi because I was afraid that he would think that I still had feelings for him, but when I heard that he already coupled with somebody else which was my bestfriend, so I concentrated on Bahar. I didn't get bothered by my own bestfriend, I was just a kid. for me, if she wanted Wafi, go ahead, but we were going to be still friends.

I don't know whether I ever been in a relationship with Bahar, I mean, we only flirted each other through the windows but never got to talk to each other. there were messengers for us to communicate through, but to hear each other's voices, never happened.

after a few weeks, my cousin Eqqy secretly commanded her brother, Eqarl, to send a letter to Bahar which I happened to accidentally knew about this. that letter was from the same bestfriend that took Wafi to be hers. ergh, what the hell? fighting over for some guy! so I just losing myself to this game. and to inform you all, I am still friends with her, my bestfriend, DD. =D

my third love story will be foretold on the next meet~ adios!

Selamat Hari Ulangtahun ABDB

I'm here to wish Happy Anniversary to ABDB, to all soldiers out there yang berkhidmat demi nusa, bangsa dan negara especially my bestfriend, Jimi and inda lupa jua my classmate Sharol. diharap akan terus berkhidmat dengan gigihnya.. =D

when he opens his eyes =)

he's like an angel =)

holding him in my arms......

wha-? you thought I am holding some guy kaa??

gila kale~~

kalau ye pun, inda jua ku kan masukkan dalam blog kale~~

daaa~~

hahaha..

before sleep mode

once again aku tengah limpang-limpang waktu ani, menunggu mata kan tidur saja lagi, so, yea, I'm using handphone masani untuk mempost this blog~

posting blog or sending e-mails to some people always get me to sleep as I tend to merepek to myself like right now which helps me bore myself and yawn and finally go to sleep after blog have been posted..

anywho, I think I'll be going to the RBAF la kali to celebrate the Army's day.. this will be my very first time ni menyambut harijadi askar seumur hidupku! heheh.. I'm so excited! mudahan saja aku tebangun karang! sekarang bah udah pukul 1++am!! ergh! bah, tidur tah kali ku tu, takut karang aku kana tinggalkan wa! okay, tata~

a little bit of my love life...

when it comes to love, I am kind of a little bit too obsess.. meaning to say, yea, I am very, very, very obsessive... it is whether I am a loving person, or just mad?

my love stories(yes, stories) began since when I was just a little girl. I was in primary 3 back then, yea, I should not have included my childhood love, but, this is really where my love life began... it all started when my classmate asked me of whom I like most in class, she meant boys. I thought she was just asking randomly, so I answered, Wafi and Azim. I did not understand anything yet of such foolish things about 'like'. I answered Wafi and Azim was because they were like, you know, smart and having to have the same standard of IQ level and in fact, we were more or less likely to compete with each other in class as to having who would get the best grades.

then, all of the sudden, the story just spread around the class on the next day about me 'liking' Wafi and Azim. I got really blurred about this, I mean, come on, I was just answering the question that had been asked, I meant no harm, or offense or anything which included deep feelings towards those boys..

hearing about the story been told to him, Wafi, who accidentally or secretly 'liked' me 'too', approached me and got near me day by day. his action made me conscious to him always and what's what, I accidentally liked him back! from then on, the relationship between these two classmates bound became a couple of puppy lovers.

our relationship did not last long, as I said, we were just a couple of puppy lovers, but the thing is, we never did break up. it is just that, we did not talked to each other anymore since proceeding to primary 4 where we had to go on our own separate ways. we were no longer classmates anymore, we became total strangers. well, kids, I cannot say more. but, we still had feelings for each other. we could only watched from far noticing that we did not tuned in again when we tried to get to a conversation if we happened to accidentally met each other. but my feelings towards him is not any longer, not when we got promoted to primary 5 which was the next year after we got broke up. my heart was stolen by some boy who had just transferred to our school, in the afternoon session, the religious lessons session.

I'll be continuing about my love stories in the next meet.. till then~

surat cinta untukmu.....

mahal sinta,

sana nangdyan ako para yakapin,

halikan at hawakan kita sa aking sariling kamay araw-araw.

ikaw ang pinaka-magandang bagay na nangyan sa buhay ko.

napapangiti mo ko, isa ka sa mababait.

ito ang pinakamasayang bahaging bahayko,

maraming salamat..

iniibig na iniibig kita!

nangungulila ako sa'yo,

ikaw ang lahat sa akin,

gusto kitang pakasalan,

gusto kong makasama habambuhay!

sinta, paalam..

ingat ka lagi..

sana maganda ang panaginipmo..

iniibig kita! iniibig kita! iniibig kita!

LOVE,

azeemwahsss

XOXO

emotional day

hey guys, I wanna story-story you a little bit about my life at MTSSR.. it has been a very good time here and I gained so much experiences walaupun alum lagi sampai setaun wa.. seriously, I've learnt loads here. I was very narrow-minded back then. being in MTSSR, banar-banar mengajar aku erti kehidupan, aku baru merasa susah, I'm getting matured..

this isn't what I'm trying to tell la actuallynya.. aku kan cerita what had happened today. it is regarding our friend here, can't reveal his name. kami seclass ani banar-banar inda tepakaikan ulahnya ni, really-really got to our nerve wa, tapi apa yang kami buat cuma sabar, sabar, sabar and bagi ia chance untuk bepikir sendiri apa yang membuatkan kami inda tepakaikan kedia ani. well, panjang pulang ceritanya ni, just to make it short, it has reached to our boiling point la pasal ulahnya ni, so we came to jump on a solution, kami panggil ia and faced him professionally.

very-very emotional la tadi. somehow aku kesian jua kan kedia, inda ku kan sampai hati banarnya bah kan meluahkan apa yang aku kesalkan pasal kedia ani kan. ada pulang aku bebunyi, tapi, inda banyak wa. aku andangnya la, marah-marahku ah, sekajap ganya tu.. pastu bepikir cia ku tu, lurus ka inda tindakanku atu. patutkah aku marah-marah atu. entah ah, it's talaga-talaga hard for me to bah kan explain sal ulahku yang sangat unique ani.. only orang yang lama udah dengan aku saja yang pahamkan aku ani..

anyways, sorry eh, aku ni andangnya ni selalu melencong cerita.. hehe.. so, as I was saying, kami reveal la, kami luahkan and stuff. it went well la. Alhamdulillah, mudahan saja lapas ani ia sadarkan ulahnya atu. aku inda mau lagi wa perkara ani happen lagi. it was like aku bah pernah rapat dengan kedia. nyeh. I feel sorry for him la...

bermacam ragam

Baby

seorang penari hindustan yang kurang professional!

Amsyar and the fruits

baa baa black kambing~~

night no sleep?

I'm laying on a tilam right now, aku tepaksa tidur di bawah dari kemarin udah since Katik beranak ani. I'm okay about it, but the thing is, aku inda dapat tidur wa gara-gara jiran sebalah-menyebalah ani jamming! alum lagi beranti-berantinya wa! aku okay berabisly la kalau sal jamming ani, banar-banar citarasaku bah lagu-lagu dorang atu, lagu teriak-teriak segala. I can sing along wa. tapi, dorang mengadakan jamming ani waktu esuknya kan sekolah wa.. kan tidur jua ku ni~ nah, kalat-kalat mata dah ku ni mengkatik-katik keypad handphoneku ah! bah eh, I'll edit this post later in the very afternoon! chow~

29th May 2009

hey, I just got up from my bed, just woke up, and yea, stil buruk! huhu. what the hell? suka hati aku la~ huhu..

anyways, I just got another 'baby fruit', delivered yesterday dawn, around 4am kali. awal-awalnya I didn't know about it, I mean, about Katik beranak sudah. yala, kata due bulan June, iski ku udah ni sal bedangan bulan 6 ani birthday! sekalinya, nah, sipi-sipi kan bulan 6 bah ia keluar ah.

macam, yesterday pagi aku bangun tidur selajur mandi and went to school, it was like nothing happen bah kemarin atu, nada orang behabar wa! atu ya udah balik sekolah bapa ada betanya arahku samada my sis, si May ikut or inda ke masjid that maghrib. i said, "kenapakan? apa ada?". then bapa cakap,"kakamu beranak jua udah tadi subuh". then I was like, yawa? then bapa cakap lagi,"astah, inda cia mendangar tadi bapa cakap tadi pagi. baby boy, bedangan cia si Abang ni". aku pun tekidum je la! huhu.
so, malam around 8pm, we went la to hospital.. sampai ja di katil Katik, there he was, tidur atas katil. namanya Mohammed Aniq Yasir, another AY ler. cute, yea, like my other anak fruits. inda kerasahan nyamu, 5 orang cia udah anak-anak Katik. cuba cek ah, 1. Mohammed Aqil Yafik (10/3/2003), 2. Afiqah Yusrina (5/4/2004), 3. Anisah Yasirah (4/2/2005), 4. Aniqah Yusriah (8/5/2007), 5. Mohammed Aniq Yasir (28/5/2009). fuh, ada kan dijaga ni! =s anak fruits yang lain, Mohammad Elman Amsyar (11/8/2008), anak G Adul. kalau dicampur dengan arwah-arwah anak Hjh Intan, jadi 8 org cia udah anak fruitsku. inda kerasahan, banartah, aku bah makin meningkat udah umur. 10 hari lagi, 20 cia umurku!! aish! nevermind la, jangan cerita sal tua lagi.

erm, owh yea, today is 29th May 2009 kan? well, aku ni jenisnya obsess bah kalau bab-bab cinta, I tell you, I tend to remember every dates yang special sangat-sangat! like today ah, it's just nothing actually, tapi it is something to me, 29th Mays, is my Anniversary hatiku and hati ex-boyfriendku, Ak. Md. Shahri bertaut(aiseh, wordsku ah! membari hayungs!). tapi bukan pulang haribulan kami couple, it's just that the day bila kami sama-sama 'ter'jatuh hati arah each other..

date kami couple dulu was on the 12th of July 2001. yea, when I was just 12 year old. he was my monkey love ler~ and long lost love jua.. mun kami inda putus wa, 8 tahun udah ku ni dgn kedia..

pasalnya kami putus, kami inda lagi mesra bah macam we used to.. sebulan labih ganya kami couple ih, inda sampai bebulan-bulan. kenapa kami inda lagi mesra, rupanya ada cerita sebaliknya..

Shahri sebenarnya couple dengan si Ruziana upanya tanpa pengetahuan orang ramai temasuk aku la jua. kira aku atu la yang backstab si Ruziana! she was my close friend time atu, sekali bila aku couple dengan Shahri, no wonder la si Ruziana cold dgn aku, umpat aku, ucap aku segala! macam la ku kan tau yang aku rampas boyfriend orang!

inda jua ku kan expect bah yang kedia ani couple sama Shahri, sal ia sendiri pun ada boyfriend udah! semua lagi orang tau siapa boyfriendnya! talur jua tu!!! or, maybe pasal Shahri putuskan ia dulu, baru couple sama aku, yata kali ia sasak atu? jeles la ni pasal kami wa couple of the year time atu! semua orang tau wa.. pemes kale~ Shahri pemes sal ia tinggi, aku pemes sal, well, academically~ (: huhu.. no wonder si Ruziana jeles! nyehehehe~

owh yea, why did I say he's my long lost love? becausenya kan, we got separated since aku tepaksa naik form 1 which was sesi ptg, so aku tepaksa pindah sekolah ugama.. well, quite complicated actually kan di explain.. huhu.. bah, otey la, I chow dulu~ tata~

heysss

it's me, Tya.. I just deleted my old account and created a new one.. if you guys are wondering, my previous blog was http://manequeeny.blogspot.com. ok, chow for now! see ya in the next meet. please visit my our blog at http://ndmec13-mtssr.blogspot.com, this blog is specially made to tell you the story about our lives at Maktab Teknik Sultan Saiful Rijal as the Mechanical Engineering students. hope you guys will have fun reading and do leave comment where necessary. thanks.